Starting school, last kiss and cactus baby

So... I finished my first week at school. Only a hell of a lot left now!!!! It was a lot less scary than I thought it would be. People are so nice and I'm sure a lot of people felt like I did, which was nervous as fucking hell. Luckily I already know the school so it also makes it less scary. I'm also lucky enough to have TWO!!! friends in the school too. Not in my class but still.

Being on my "happy pills" makes a huge difference too. I don't get the need to hide away in the bathroom at breaks, I can easily talk to people, I'm not shy to speak in class. I can even take the bus and train on my own. It has made such a huge difference in my life. I really think I can go through these 3 years without much trouble. I WILL graduate.

I have a hard time WANTING to make friends, but I'm accepting that because it doesn't mean I'm being mean to people or pushing them away, I'm just trying to settle. My main goal is just to finish these 3 years in school so I can move the hell out of here. Is that bad? Nah.

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Sean went back last night. I don't feel well, at all. I cried a lot before he left, but after? Nothing. I feel the tears trying to come out, but it's like my head won't let me.

I fell asleep with a t-shirt he left here, and I even woke up hugging it tight. It's just not the same. I always feel like this after we've been together. I feel hopeless, lonely, needy and whiny. But honestly? I'm fucking allowed. I just had to kiss my boyfriend for the last time. I probably won't see him again until June next year.  Just the thought makes my heart go "FUCK".

But I'll be okay. I'll be fine. We'll be perfectly fine. It's just hard right now. 

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Since I'm feeling pretty shitty, I've decided to make buttons! And is it any surprise I want to do cacti? I think not. I don't have any rough sketches yet or anything, and I'm not really planning on selling anything but if people like it, I MIGHT sell some. I'm thinking cacti, feminist sayings, sexualities, save different animals, shit like that. I'm excited. I can't buy materials until next months but that's fine, I need to focus on school and ye.

 I think I've done enough rambling for now. So I'll go make some lunch for tomorrow and tidy my room to get my mind of things.

How's your day? Tell me about how great your summer was!

Room tour 2015

Project Re-do Room

My room now: 

Things I want for my room:

Welded wire fence // Mirror // Cacti // Cacti set // Gallery shelf // Cabinet // Bookshelf

What I want my room to be like:

My wardrobe is "built-in" so I can't move it. I hate it beyond anything on this earth, but luckily I won't have to live with it forever (hopefully my future home won't have a built in ugly wardrobe), but the wardrobe makes it hard to move other furniture around, which is why old room and new room looks alike in lay out. It's simply because I can't do anything else that'll work.

I also want a wall tapestry and other nick nacks, but you'll see that when I'm done with my room!
I'm also trying hard to save up for good paint, because that shiz isn't cheap at all ;__; But it'll be worth it. My room means a lot to me, and my perfectionist brain will "soon" be at peace. July couldn't come faster!

What does your room looks like? I love seeing other peoples living spaces! xx

Wooden jewellery hanger

I've been too much into interior and especially raw wooden items lately. I came across this on a tumblr post and then dragged Sean out for a walk to find a branch. And it was piss easy to make.

You'll need:

• A branch
• Nails and a hammer
• Some string

How you do it:
Find out where you want to place the nails. When you hammer them in, make sure the nails are going a bit upwards, so when you put on the jewellery, it won't just slip off. Carefully hammer in the nails, make sure they don't go through the branch. Now measure out some string, rather too long than too short, you can always cut some off. Wrap it around the branch a few times and make sure the knot are on top of the branch, so it won't dangle downwards. Now put a nail in the desired placement, hang it up and start putting jewellery on it!

I hope that could inspire some of you for new ways to store and display jewellery. I'm in love with mine at least!

A box of us.

Being away from someone you love is extremely harsh. In April Sean and I have been together for 4 years. Physically seen each other for 3. But I never get used to it. And to comfort myself, I have a box of us.

The box contains many kinds of memories we have together. Boarding passes, pictures, tickets from places we've been, small trinkets that reminds us of our relationship, jewellery he got me that I don't really wear but don't want to throw out or give away.

Whenever I'm really sad or just miss him beyond what's bearable, I open it and look through it. It comforts me. It's a piece of home. Sean even has one that he keeps in his room. When we move in together we'll find a bigger wooden box and paint it and combine all over memories from when we were apart.

And seeing as Valentines day is around the corner (not that it's a thing I care about) I thought I would share this little cute thing. Make a box for your partner, decorate it and fill it with things that reminds you of them. Draw things, write letters, buy their favourite sweets, maybe put in a t-shirt. And you can tell them to keep the box and use for memories during your relationship. Can of course also be for a friend! And you don't even have to live far apart, it can still be a cute little present. 

Other ideas for Valentines Day, birthday, anniversary that have a personal meaning (that doesn't only apply to long distance relationship couples):

• 52 reasons why I love you on a deck of cards
• 100 reasons why I love you in a note book you decorate yourself (I did this myself for Sean last year. I wrote them down in the book and afterwards posted on our long distance relationship blog) 
• If you're crafty, paint a picture, draw some drawing, sew a teddy, cross stitch something cute (made the cross stitch for Sean and I's 3 year anniversary)
• Frame pictures of you together or the paintings/drawings you made for them
• Buy a book they've been wanting to read for ages and put in little cute notes as a surprise when they read through it
• Mix CDs. If your parter is a music lover, put a bunch of songs that reminds you of them or you think they'll love and decorate the front of the CD. It's cute and personal!
• Speaking of discs, you could also make a video for them and put on a disc. Get an empty case for it and decorate and whenever they miss you, they can watch it!
• Bake some goodies. Sean loves cake and chocolate - sometimes more than he loves me ;-) - and I'm sure any one would appreciate some home baked treats. Sean and I made some brownie treats, they are super easy and taste so bloody good

I hope this post was somewhat useful! And Seanie, if you read this. I love you Bumbum, more than I love soft blankets, kittens and puppies ;-)

DIY: Crystal necklace

You'll need:

Metal thread, crystals (with holes in), a chain, pair of scissors, super glue and a.. jewellery.. thing..

How you do it:

Cut chain to desired length

Cut a piece of metal thread, rather cut it too long than too short!

Add chain to the thread

Make a loop around the chain to secure it

Tighten it

Cut off excess thread and put into the crystal and add a drop of super glue. Repeat on the other side!

Final product:

If you're giving this as a present, find a cute box, put some kind of lining in and bam! Looks very pretty and they will be shocked when you say you made it yourself

I love crystal necklaces and it's super easy to make! Christmas is around the corner, it makes an adorable present. And who doesn't love a home made present? It's personal and you spend time doing it! So I hope you can use this little quick DIY. I had fun making it!

Where to get crystals: Ebay, I got mine from this seller. Else markets, craft shops.

How to: Bubble paintings

YOU WILL NEED:

HOW TO DO IT:

Distribute the acrylic paint into your bowls. Which colours you use are totally up to you.

Pour some washing-up liquid and water into the bowls. You might need more washing-up liquid or paint, but the only way to tell is by trying while you're doing it.

Mix your bubble paint.

Blow into the paint bowl with your straw. Easiest way to tell if you need to add some more paint or washing-up liquid is that if the mixture doesn't bubble well, or the bubble don't have the colour your put in the bowl, it needs a bit more.

Gently put the paper over the bubbles, let it sit for a few seconds and remove. Repeat as many times as you desire and play around with the colours.

Let the paintings dry and afterwards put a bunch of books on top to straighten the paper. Might not be needed if you use really thick paper, but mine was a bit thinner and would curl up because of the nature of putting something wet on paper.

AND VIOLA! BUBBLE PAINTINGS.