Berlin part III: Lush on Friedrichstrasse

Have you ever been to a Lush before?

I have. And I hated it. It was a tiny one at Victoria station in London and it was overwhelming and overpowering with smells and impressions. I haven't been to one since, but when I saw this one, I had to go take a look.

I was greeted by the the sweetest guy, I never got his name because I was flustered with impressions. He started to GLOW when he was I was carrying a camera, asked if I wanted to see a demonstration of a bath bomb to take pictures of. I couldn't say no, he was too cute.

He showed me how the things worked, we talked about what ingredients they use, even my brother got interested in their products. He washed my hands in some shower gel which smelled like sweets - and can I just say, he can was my hands all day, every day ;-)

IF YOU'RE REAdING THIS SALES MAN, I WILL MARRY YOUR HANdS

I was sold. I love Lush now. Their products are 100% vegetarian, some even vegan. They only use natural materials and safe synthetics. ANd THEY dON'T TEST ON ANIMALS!!!! I got a shampoo bar that's vegan, it's called Godiva, and so far I'm pleased. The smell is amazing. I'm going to make Sean my Lush pusher, so I can try out more things ;-)

I was born with antennas...

..... on top of my head. No one noticed, because only I can see them. As a young child, I never realised they were there. I was a bit sensitive, sure, but it never stopped me from making friends and going on adventures.

I grew older, my antennas grew with me. I felt things I didn't understand, I didn't know how to handle. I could suddenly feel angry, sad or extremely energetic. This was uncommon for me, I was very aware of my own feelings, of myself in general. But I never asked questions. I accepted it and went on with my days.

I would start feeling tense sometimes. Around certain people, I felt like I had to be on the tippiest of my toes. I felt overly aware of what was going on around me, even though I never understood. I knew my father's anger, I knew my mother's sadness. I felt them as my own.

I was a pre-teen when I realised what was going on. My grandfather had just died and that's what I saw how strange my antennas were. I realised I took on everyone else's feelings. My mother's frustration turned into my frustration, my grandmother's grief became mine too. I could sense everything.

The older I got, the worse it got. Now it wasn't just family or friends, but that person next to me on the train, I could sense something was up with them. I wasn't dealing with my grandfather's death very well, so having to feel everyone else's feelings on top of mine was sometimes too much.

I used to cut myself and drink alcohol to make it go away. Not the proper way of dealing with feelings, but I was confused and desperate. It dulled my own pain and the not so my own pain.

But my antennas aren't all bad. They taught me important things too. My sense of situation is amazing, I know when to keep in the background and when to ask questions. I know how to handle people in whatever mood they are, if I need to be direct or build up the conversation slowly. I take extra care of people and understand them better.

Sometimes it's still overwhelming. But sometimes it's nice enough, I like this little "secret" of mine.

Berlin part II: Touristing

Berlin Part I: Strolling around the area

"Only when I sit around, my mind suffers" - Thanks for the translation, Larissa ;-)

Quick hello and what's coming up?

Hello there, long time no see! Well it hasn't been that long, but ya know.

I've returned from Berlin, I actually did a little week ago, but I've been trying to get back into the swing of things with school. It hasn't been stress free, but I made it! So now I'm catching up with home work, assignments and my beloved blog.

So what's coming up?

Well, of course you all need to see my Berlin trip. I've been procrastinating organising the pictures I've taken, but I'll force myself to get it done this weekend.

I'm also doing a post about starting school after 3 years "out" of education, and how my anxiety is taking all this change. It's been a year of major changes and my head can't always deal with it well.

Along with the school topic, I have thought of a backpack essentials or something in that manner!

On top of that, I have some special "creative writing" posts I would like to publish for you all to read.
 

But when it'll all come is a good question. I've felt a bit uninspired, but hopefully I can get the spark back soon.

How are you all?